I once again find myself looking into the faces of strangers… examining them for that glimmer of shared attraction… trying to identify with thoughts of the future. I keep being swept back to the past and reluctantly pull my consciousness back to reality.
Are these ramblings of my mind harmful to my sanity? I allow my thoughts to take me back to the times of companionship and security… playing the roles of love and acceptance from the emotions that have gone astray. These thoughts replay memories and interact with words and deeds that calm my mind and fuel good feelings in my soul.
I contemplate over the need for an emotional vacation… not wanting to deal with the experiments of taking on a new experience. It is a struggle with the past… an uncertainty in the future. On occasion, I want to give up this search, but realize that the human mind and body are magnetized for the union of another soul.
I will, undoubtedly, continue to peer into the minds of these strangers that fall into my path and will sustain the efforts necessary for the search of a companion to share my life and love.
Shannon R Killman
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