My Pearl

When we were together as one, much as a pearl enclosed in an oyster’s shell, my mind and thoughts were fueled with the opportunity of fatherhood. My task was that of compassion and direction. Now that the forces of the outside world have invaded our path of destiny, my purpose has changed in like the seasons.

My first response was to fight the inevitable… to struggle with the complexities of fatherhood from a distance. I battled with the other protectors of your innocence and carried a great burden inside of my soul… all the while smiling and flirting with the positive and negative emotions of our relationship.

It has not been an easy coarse to traverse… constantly juggling with the emotional trauma of our repeated separation and the enjoyment of our reunions. I am only with you a scant portion of time in your deliberation of growth. My time with you is now portioned to me… like the treats of sunlight given to a prisoner.

I hope and pray that our moments together will make impressions on your future, and my smile will be etched in your mind… the security of my arms around you pull the love and intentions from the aura of my spirit into yours. I wonder… will you remember my heartbeat, my love, and my call to your memory?

I do not have the power of controlling the passing of he sands of time. Our embraces are temporary and incomplete. I long to guide you in the direction of correctness… but I cannot grasp enough time… ours is precious to me… as precious as my own existence.

I long to be your friend… to hold your hand and to hear your voice asking questions of life. I need to see the tears of joy… to feel the warmth of your path into eternity.

I hope that when you age, you will not question my love or my concern. You are my pearl. Your fate is decided by the artistry of others. Remember… you have been covered by my love and by my kindness. You will forever be the portion of myself that I will continue to search for…

Shannon R Killman