Circumstances

I have felt, in this recent past, a familiar pull at my subconscious. That feeling that I never wanted to resurface. I strained to look around for the answers but wondered through my nights as a blind man.

I could feel the heaviness of my heart within my chest and the tug of helplessness that surrounded my mind. I feel like a man trying to find his way to the surface of a raging, rolling river… struggling to find the peace on a calm and waveless shore.

My thoughts for you became desperate to the foreshadowing of events I could not control. I will have to adjust to my life without you… these thoughts leave me helpless in my struggle. How can I handle the torment of another in your arms?

It seems that love has turned a cruel hand. How can so much good and so much tenderness end before it had a chance to begin? Now I am void and alone in my world. It should not be this way. Your words that placed an end to our time struck at me in the way I expected them to… the torment of my thoughts were only too real.

I wish that our time did not have to end. You cannot understand how much my soul was at rest when I realized that you could be the one that was meant for me. Circumstances dictate all things. I wish our circumstances were more in my favor.

Shannon R Killman